Those big decision and failure

Hey guys, long time no see~
:)
Well haha tgh busy giler dlm sem 1 yang lepas, pastu xde masa langsung nak check blog nih....

Okayh, skarang tgh cuti sem, x lama pn 3 minggu jek... (DAMN)
Whatever it is, aq nk cakap time aq jawab final exam haritu mmang teruk giler, dah la tgh demam, pastu x faham langsung...huhu

Okayla sbnarnye aq nak citer camne aq bleh masuk PSA (POLITEKNIK SHAH ALAM/ POLITEKNIK SULTAN SALAHUDDIN ABDUL AZIZ SHAH) ni..

As you guys know, i never intended to become an engineer.... it's just...TOO DAMN DIFFICULT!!! huhuhu serius kalau aq fikir balik sebab2 camne aq bleh tersesat kat bab2 engineering ni, there's only one thing that explain everything...

-FAMILY DECISION-

At first, what i really wanted to become is animation designer, you know sort of making cgi, effects and others in movie and film....
Can you believe me that i actually didn't do my best in my SPM only because i dont want programmes other than the animation?
It's the truth guys, haha during my time as a high school student in form 4 and 5, I have stick in arts and animation because i fall in love with certain animation movies which have a good storyline and a high quality modelling...
It's too naive, I'm too naive, hopes that those "worse" result will change my family's mind, other than it follows my plan, it turns out to be worse, a day after i got my result, my father asked me "di, kau amik engineering eh? kau dah sesuai sgt dlm bidang nih"....
A shocking and paralysing sentence, like I can oppose my family's decision... it's just i think "if I didn't go, how can i make it in life?"
from that on the fate are all turning to oppose me, from that time, i'm taking that program because i think of the salary i got after it, not because of my interest or so whatever.....
It's just too much that i can't handle it by myself, even my friends can't help me because this is my problems towards my family....
And when the result of IPT intake was out, i got here...
From now on i just go by what is in front of me, actually i don't have any interest in learning this engineering course.... somehow i don't know how am i surviving this program....
Well, if i got worse in this program, of course i cant blame it on anyone, i will just be grounded......

Keeping this things playing on my mind while all the things that was unnecessary happens to me....

The only matter after this is "what happen to me is my own problems" that's my pride so far, that's why i dont like those exaggerating jokes from those people in my class...
What i wish for right now is to depends on my friend who's taking that program to proceed with my dreams... please go on Fahruddin :)

Regards
MR